Forgiveness

As I lay trying to sleep, I find myself in a panic.

The holiday has brought me much pain.

Not able to see the future I find it alone.

Still working on the house plans,

still dreaming of what should have been.

The beat of my heart quickens,

my brain tumbles with ifs.

Maybes are always in my head,

desires are in my heart.

To be with you again, the love, and the friend.

My life is you, my heart is yours, my sole walks alone.

Will you be my wife?

You are my eternal life.

The smile that always warmed the heart,

just a recurring dream.

The embraces that shared the love,

a repeating fantasy.

The "I love you" and stares,

haunt me forever.

These gifts are for you.

Expressions of love.

The presents for you,

desires and thoughts.

Please have forgiveness.

For you have won my heart.

Please have forgiveness.

For you are my master.

Please have forgiveness.

For you are my love.